Diary of a losing poker player

I'm not sure if I will complete this or or how often I'll post, but its my idea to discuss from a losers point of view (closer to BE I think, truth be known) the game of poker. Why I lose, when I win, what I think, read, bankroll etc. You see I'm actually pretty good but online is tough and I have some serious holes. Not so much in the way I play (well maybe some, lol) but mainly the way I chose a game, when I chose to play and my mindset during the game.

Because I love the game I do some very stupid things. I'll register in games I may not even be able to play. I'll register in games knowing I may need to sit out a good portion of the game. Virtually every night because I 'm chasing the kids I preregister in games never knowing when or if I'll get to sit down. Mainly the 7pm to 10pm MTT's.

Just recently, a few weeks ago, I was deep in a $10r on stars, I've got 140k in chips about 45th place and only about 60 players left. I was in the money deep as I believe 180 was the bubble. What do I have to do ! I have to drive someone to their hotel in the city. By the time I get back I'm down to 60k. I played a few more hands and busted out when runner runner 4flush took out my AA in the BB. I think I would have gone deeper if I had of just blinded out completely. How many opportunities did I miss? Finished in 32nd place.

Last night is again a prime example of why I can't keep a bankroll. I'm just to much of an addict. I register in 3 games without knowing when I'll get to play and in one I was down to 700 before I saw a card. I want to play virtually every day and in particular the juicy MTT's. My main problem is.......I have a life. I have a job, a beautiful wife and 3 really great children. 12,8 and 4YO.

Thankfully, I will normally only register in freerolls or games <$5 if I don't know when I can start.

But I'll register in anything up to and including the Sunday million without knowing if I can finish.


LOL, I'm not even sure what the point is to what I'm writing. I just set up the blog today and I'm rambling a bit. I hope to write some interesting stories soon. I see some crazy hands...

A bit about me.

I'm an addict, but... I know poker. I've played every day for 4 years and I'm in information sponge. I read every mag, book, blog I can find. I play on PS,Party,Eurolinx,Fulltilt,Fullcontact,Titan,.....& many others. I've done the bonus thing and many others. I like the occassional live game but I find the pace painful. As it is now I'm bored playing less than 2 online games at once. 4 in normal.

More to come soon.

All the best from sunny Ottawa.

Remember if you look around the table and can't find the donk, find another table cuz its not us!